对不起

不知什么时候听人说
父母千辛万苦养大一个孩子，给他们吃饱喝暖、住好穿好、教他们什么叫爱…
可是孩子长大了呢？第一个爱的却是别人！
听到这句话的同时，我真的觉得我姐姐超级没有用
一个人，我父母养她二十三年。
一开始因为一个不爱她的男人，跟全家吵翻天！
然后现在呢，为了一个她爱的也爱她的人，和全家吵翻天。
找到一个她爱也爱她的人难道不好吗？我的答案是好。
可是当那个男的已经离婚了，还有两个孩子时，情况就不一样了。
也许你会说，没什么，孩子而已吗？
可是你们想想，天下哪个父母会希望自己的孩子嫁给一个这样的人？
不是怕没钱，是怕孩子们的幸福。
我妈妈和爸爸，就是因为怕我姐姐以后的生活太过苦，
要照顾自己的孩子，还有那两个孩子。
这不算反对。我父母只是要她想清楚。确定以后真的要这么走下去。
可是呢？她说我们反对她们。
说我们没有真的爱上一个人过。
我不懂。其实我现在在哭。刚刚打着游戏，泪还是滴下来。
我真的很心痛。我的妈妈，被我姐气到要哭。我爸，我姐既然问我爸，
你觉得妈妈嫁给你很幸福吗？每天过着这么苦的生活。她还不是选错人？所以现在才过得这么苦！
我爸爸很生气，挂了电话。
我妈妈听到了，就说：我们就是怕你重复倒彻。所以才要你想清楚。
可是呢？我姐顶嘴。一口咬定我们反对他。
我们都没觉得什么。只是要她想清楚。可是？她硬说我们认为她笨、他自私！！
说我们连累他！？
连累什么！！！！
去你的
爸妈养你二十三年
你为一个男人
弄到妈妈哭
我哭
哥哥伤心
全家没眼看
你懂什么
我只是要你幸福
很难吗
你误解我就算了
可是你说妈妈
说婆婆
我真的不懂
那个原来的姐姐呢？
去了哪里
现在说自己翅膀大了
可以自己养活自己
觉得我们错
自己没有错
天
我真的很想
杀了你，杀了大姐
谁来告诉我
一个这样说自己父母的人
有什么用

你！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
觉得失望就去！！！
我不需要你！！！
不需要你这个姐姐！！！！
不需要！！！！
我！！！从现在开始！！
我不认你！！
我，陈紫蓉，
不认你！！我不认你！！陈紫玲！！！
去你的！！！去死啦！！！
我很失望
比你对我们的失望还失望
你觉得大了
就去吧
你把妈妈惹到哭
妈妈心疼你
她哭，还是要告诉你
可是呢？你一直顶
妈妈的眼睛已经要瞎了
闪光三百
他为了这个家
去借钱、帮爸爸还债、养我们
爸爸一个人在外头，赚钱、然后在赌钱、再花钱、再赚、再赌，
现在呢？
妈妈在哭
我看到他的心在流血
我也在哭
哭自己没有用
我想我很需要一个辅导师
我很想忘记
我宁愿我的生命从来没有她这个人
她
去死好过
我真的不懂要怎么做了
天………………………………………………………………………………………………
眼前很模糊
我看不清电脑荧幕
眼睛也懵了
睡不着
心痛
妈妈的心也在痛
我不知道
要怎麽办了
我哭
不是因为我伤心
是我恨
恨自己
那么没有用
今天是初五
新年还没有过去
我的心却好像清明节
死了算了
新年
哈
我更想死的一年
现在，他还当着妈妈的面
对她的男友说
我不想和他们说话
他们只会认为我自私
不管怎么讲
最后还是我的决定
！！！！！！！！
你奶奶的
不要给我在外面看到你们！！
我一定
叫我那帮人
把你们两个打到人不像人、鬼不像鬼
你当着妈妈的面
这样说
现在起你
死了
陈紫玲死了
你再也不是那个我认识的你

1st Time Give Ang Pao XD

Wahahaha! first of all wish you all happy chinese new year and happy valentine's day!
today ah i go sunshine square work lo..
work at Applemints =P
then because i just help my aunt's friends to work
so she pay me before i go back
i get my work pay today!!
its not much, just only RM40

But you all know la, me so good
i took my work pay and gave my parents and grandma ang pao!! XD
Grandma= RM20, Papa and Mama= RM10 each
then my work pay no liao XD

anyway it is first time i give to my parents and ahma XD
when i give to my mummy
she was like that O.O?
the conversation is like that...

@Me: ah mi (my mum), this is for you and papa d.
@Mum: Huh?
@Me: this is my work pay.
@Mum: huh? ( after she took the ang pao from me she still showing the blur face XD)
@Me: Ang pao la =.=
@Mum: hahahahhaha.....

faint. why is she laughing >.<>
then when i give to my ah ma she like very touched,
haha like wanna cry liao XD
* joking *

tonight i go find yee wen ah
she wear a long tee
faint, i thought she was wearing dresss !!
because she did not wear pants...
faint leh? XD Anyway i did took her picture down, if got chance then show you all =p
then i also took her little brother's picture, haha i guess can sell quite a good price
ithink my school got quite many his admirer gua?
XD

that is all for now, gonna sleep if not tomorrow no energy to take ang pao XD
and work is tiring too~!
mwuahs all i love you all please miss me =)

Happy CNY & Valentine's!! XD

1st of all.. i gonna busy for this holiday !! XD
wish all of yours happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's day!! XD


happpy valentine's~ XD


Happy~ Chinese New Year!~

sleeeeeeeepY

latest quite busy ya.. busy until i forget to write blog and forget what had happened~
LOL.
in that case, im going to tell you how is my "today"
today is quite scary day XD
because i have to do my Oral and Lisan
somemore i have presentation in BC too..

actually i never go and memorised the lisan / oral.. i just anyhow read the point and anyhow talk
but then i feel very.. nervous ah? dont know how to say
my hand cold like ice!!
then when i go out to start my lisan and oral..
my brain started to become blank!!
oh my buddha only
faint
luckily i anyhow talk la can pass also~
my oral get 21 Marks XD
but dont know how about my lisan ? T.T
then when recess time i want to do my presentation..
because yesterday i too focus on my oral and i fall asleep >.<
never do dao my presentations' slide Oh my BUDDHA!!!!
but luckily la time also not enough >.<>

2 more days then holiday...
3 more days then CNY....
i'm waiting for my food.
and.. ANG PAO!! XD ang pao ang pao i love you mwuahs muacks~~~!!
*Kiss x 1000000000000000000*

i think that is all for now.. seriously very tired, XD
good night all sweet dreams!! (Hot dream or Wet dream maybe? XD)
-no jokes 1st.. veyr tired >.<>

Alot Things to Say But Summarised XD

harlo all~~
today is quite busy, still because of homework
anyway, Chinese New Year is coming sooon!!! i'm waiting for my holiday~ XD
still remember the mini station game i did said in the post before?

last saturday we did it!
had to tell all of my member and friends, Well Done!!
although it is abit messy over there, but the game still going nicely.
XD
for first try, it is really not bad guys!!
at least all of us enjoy =)
i hope there is another chance to make such activities like this again =p
Gambatte neh Persatuan Bahasa Cina!! you are the best! i believe =)

by the way, today my school had organise an activity,
it is like a speech though but not exactly
all about manners those and it is buddhist one.
my leg feel quite pain because we all was kneeling on the floor for around 10 minutes i think
T.T teacher torturing us wuwuwuwu

then after that ah...
when the sivik lesson is going, we need to wrap our table
we are doing the sivik project and the mission is to clean the class and wrap the table like that
but as usual la, sure got accident d ma.
Our class no one did bring the camera to take photo =.=
if no camera means no capture means not going to wrap the table!!
then our project will be delayed..
luckily at last Elaine's parent took the camera to school for her
but then =.=
no battery!! faint why so many incident LOL
but anyway our class still wrapped all the table nicely ! XD
good job to 5SA classmate!
oh ya have to remind 5SA student here, the plastic we used to wrapped a table is..
78cm x 59 cm! the siez~ remember write in the report ya~

then then then ah, today reach home liao feel very tired lo
but still got alot homework to do
haiz, tonight no pasar malam again >.<
nevermind.. i promise after SPM i sure go eat 999999999999999
hmph! XD blek =p

tomorrow ahka cannot play with me when PJK period ah..
*she need to go USM, for confirming participants on MSSPP*
sure very sien T_T somemore later Goh Kim Kim period.. die!
Oh My God!! ahka!!
someone help us.. Wednesday is we twos' Lisan + Oral!!
Oh My God Oh My Jesus Oh My Buddha!!!
die le la >.< - dying -

Jokes:
@Min: wow aunty Wong, how to make your lips so shiny?
@Aunty Wong: Use Laskes's lipstick!
@Min: wow aunty Lim, how to make your face looks so smooth?
@Aunty Lim: Use Monsawr's facial paste!
@Min: wow aunty Mecca, how to draw your smokey eyeshadow?
@Aunty Mecca: .. tonight u wear sun glasses and go to bang on the road lamp

Oh my god LOL funny really ! was laughing when reading this XD

I h@te you

damn you damn you damn you TAN ZHI YIN
what did i owe you?!!!
don't make me to scold you with all the bad words!!!
you better go away from me, far away from me, and never appear in front my eyes for now!!!
You!!
better never ever Blame me!!!!
i'm not good temper i think you know and YOU!
go far away from me!!!
i never owe you anything and!
if in the last lifetime i did owe you!
then You go back to the last lifetime!!
what with the zzzzz!!!
I H-A-T-E Y-O-U!!!!
what freaking person you are and what fucking annoyed you were?!!

i'm being upset today! and being angry and mad!!!
someone kill me please or let me kill!!
let me being childish and kill all of my temper!!

ZzZzZzZzZzZzZz
no mood to do homework and continue blogging now
sorry friends i did scolded bad words but i cannot control
hope there is a nice tomorrow !!!

She aims for success!

at 1st i wanted to wish 3 person~
Poh Chin Shi~~> one of my friends~
Happy Birthday!! 03/02/2010

Loh Yee Wen~~> Mosquito!
Happy Birthday!! 04/02/2010

Thor Choon Yi~~> one of my friends too~
Happy Birthday!!04/02/2010

wish you three have a nice day and best birthday that ever had!
by the way thanks for wen wen's chocolate cake XD
* yummy~*

How Are You?
dont ask me this question well my answer 100% will be im being busy and crazy OMG!!
was busy for homework and school activities~
this saturday going have a mini mini station game for my club~
wish all the best on that day! everything will be ok and funnY!

actually i today i went to counselling room ( not to get some counselling service la )
i ask teacher for information to get in college
then teacher asked me which college i want to study and what is the course name and what what what bla bla bla
then i also dont know how to answer so i just tell teacher :
teacher sorry i m not that clear about it.
then teacher say yourself also dont know then how i gonna help you find lol
i think : 废话拉! if i know i no need come le lo stupid =.=

then she gave me a book
then i told her i want to study about banking and finance those.
lol faint. after i read the book i become more confusing

OMG someone tell me
what is the different between Finance&Investment and Banking & Finance?
what is the meaning of Marketing?
why do we take ACCA for account?
how much the fee for one course?
how long do i need to complete whole path of coursing?
what meant by credits?

Walao Leh!! Alot problems nia make me become more and more confusing!!

then i decided tomorrow go to counselling teacher again
i really dont understand
must have some further explanation lol
anyway i was planning my future..
for me i was interested in $$$ and Investment
because can make alot money ma..~ i think all of my friends know i do like money alot alot alot too!! XD

ok lo well so i must aim for sucess
yeah, the one " She" on the title there is "Me"

she aims for success
she need all yours support
she trying her very best
she planning her future
she belief she can do it
she wanted to be a millionaire
she wish to find out what she gonna do
She, Me, aims for success

now i aims for my 1st exam results. i has got a very very high target
hope i can hit it! wish me all the best, friends.
Need Yours Support!! Friends!!
Aim For Success!!

PS: tomorrow i has got morla nilai test, wish me all the best too!! emergency!! XD